CO ah CO ah Why?!?! I really dunno how to help dem le... Wat kind of a SL m i...
Nil Sine Labore.. Tmr's labour day.. Hope our hardwork pay off..
posted @22:22
Sunday, April 29, 2007
As usual, GP tuition today was a drag. And i think my tutor came unprepared today. Neither was i. Sorta like wasting time & money today. But i dun quite care i suppose. I never did when it came to subjects i loathe, i detest, i hv no interest in. I just cant tune myself, though i often try to forsee myself getting interested in GP & actually reading up every bit of readable text to boost my calibre in english understanding & writing. (it's like some farfetched story, much like a fairy tale waiting for the next person to read it again & again & again without any fruition in real life) I guess that's as far as my english "chimalogy" will go...
Maybe i will hv better luck in maths, or science, or CO..
Then again, it's like finding a pin in a haystack..
ArGhZ.. Screw it..
What the hell happened to me sia...
posted @22:32
Sian...
Haiz.. Really think i am gonna get sick soon. Mucus keeps oozing out from my nose here & there. Plus i feel weird, like how i usually would feel when i m abt to get sick. ArGhZ.. Hope it doesnt get worse than it is now. ArGhZ...
Man.. I think the illness is blocking my thoughts...
posted @00:23
Saturday, April 28, 2007
It's coz of me..It's just me..
Crap.. What did i do? Crap.. What did i do? Crap.. What did i do?
It's coz of me.. It's coz of me.. It's coz of me..
It's just me.. It's just me.. It's just me..
posted @00:09
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Haiz...
I really miss Taiwan. Had TIP presentation today for the yr 1s. Was reminiscing every single picture & video that was shown. I guess this is one decision that i can truely say that i didnt regret doing. All the ups & downs, all the happiness & sorrows.. TIP has indeed enriched my jc life. I cant help but to feel that fate has arranged 15 of us to come together. I guess i really did benefit much from it... Then.. No more TIP briefing or rehersals, more importantly, no more mr gi. Believe it or not, i sure hope that it would never come to an end, but it has. Haiz...
A sudden gap that fills me from within. I rarely cry for such sad departures (not that it is one) ... I guess that's how far it gets...
Well, skipped H3 for the 2nd time since last yr. Coincidentally, both times were for TIP stuff. The first time i ponned lecture for no apparent reason was also during TIP period with TIP ppl. First time i had so much fun was also with TIP. First time i felt so lonely when it has come to an end was also due to TIP. Foong told me not to make it sound as if we werent gonna meet again. I guess it's just a feeling from deep within.
I guess no amount of words can express how i feel...
Then there's life as it is now. Crap... Seriously, i hv no idea how i managed to change from the me i was last yr to the me i am now. Tmr's econs test, it's midnight already and i m only at page 10/40 of my econs notes. Yay...
It sux that some people can ________ yet _________ ... ArGhZ ...
I am beginning to understand myself less. Who am i?
TIP rox man...
posted @23:59
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Worse and worse.. crap
It just gets worse...
and worse...
and worse...
Sometimes i think i shld just disappear or sth...
posted @22:35
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Wheee!
对面的女孩看过来！ 看过来！ 看过来！
Haha! Got addicted to the song after hearing it on the radio just now.. Hehe!
Just when i thought i hv managed to overcome them, they come back again.. Sian ah!
posted @21:16
Monday, April 23, 2007
SPA OVER!
I hv never been for an actual spa before. But...
SPA IS FINALLY OVER!
LOL! Dint like the way i end it though. Could hv done better i thought. Can only blame it on my lack of motivation to study & perseverance to pay attention in lectures & tutorials.
Either way, full steam ahead for co! Lol...
Crap.. Econs test tis friday. Which means more reading of lec notes during dazu tmr! Hehe!
Sometimes i really wonder if what i am doing is right. I wonder how others think of my actions.
Playing world domination 2 on miniclip! Hehe!
posted @20:14
Sunday, April 22, 2007
17 more days!
18 more days to syf. Minus today, that makes 17. What's wif my recent obsession wif co?
posted @23:31
East Zone concert
Concert finally over. Left syf. Haiz.. Just hope for the best for myself, for everyone's sake. :)
Anw, must thank a few ppl. Yeesiang for the choco which maolin happily cope. Ben & xinrong for the rose. Qiyan for the bear/choco mini-hamper. And of course deborah for the enormous flowers! Haha! Those people who shouted my name. And not forgetting those who wished me luck for my solo. Thank you so much. Really really made my day! :) Oh! And there's also tingkai! Qing Chuan Su Huai rox! Hehe! Damm pro sia he! Haha!
Maybe xuyang was right. Some things dunnit to say so obvious. Know it inside can le...
Anw, think i hv changed quite a bit over the past 1 yr. Was thinking about the difference between last yr's concert & today's one. I guess time does matter afterall. Powerful ah, time...
HAha! No GP tuition! Hehe! Should hv concert every sat sia! So can cancel tuition like free! Oh! Must rmb to reg for SAT tmr too! Hehe!
Watever it is, 我是神! Haha!
posted @00:45
Friday, April 20, 2007
How How How?!?!
ArGhZ... Huge influx of thoughts.. How How How?!?! Scary...
Man.. Time flies.. I guess people regret. It's how u live with those regrets that make u DE MAN! :p haha!
Cheer up good old me!!! :)
posted @23:52
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Happy/ Sad
Haiz.. Just sent 22 smses.
Hmmm. I guess emo-ing does cause one to sort out one's thoughts & think differently. Moral of story: emo more! haha! No la...
Anw, glad for the half day today. H3 is cancelled which called for even more relief. Was looking forward to a earlier home-return today, but actually reached home at a record-breaking time of 3.40! Haha! I miss daylight while walking home from the bus stop home! Haha! Anw, 'wildhog' proved to be a much-needed breather. It's weird how stories always hv characters who are uncertain of themselves, lose confidence in themselves only to find their true self or sth like tat. How i wish life was much simpler & quicker. Emo-ing that lasts only 20 min & you can always expect a happy ending.
Whatever it is, i guess i felt happier today! Haha! Too bad it's like a once in a blue moon thing. :p
posted @20:03
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Haiz... HaIz.. HAIZ...
Haiz... HaIz.. HAIZ...
posted @21:15
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Man.. my solo really sux huh.. Haiz..
posted @22:45
Monday, April 16, 2007
Feeling like shit
Seriously, the 'shitiness' brewing in me is an understatement. Today has got to be my most unlucky day... Really sorry for all those nerves that i hv gotten on. I must have pissed off many. Whatever is it, i just hope tmr will be a better day. There's really nth else i can do.
Seriously, i see the problem but don't know how to solve it. U know it's weird how sometimes when there r many around, i wish to be alone, and when no one is around, i wish for someone to be around? The simple problem of social communications and circle seem to plague my mind recently like a fungus that grows in earthworms. (Yep.. Heard from bio tutorial today) Haiz.. Whatever...
I hate making choices. Why cant everything just fall in place nicely so that i don't hv to make any choices on my part? Arghz..
Busier times ahead. Someone save me! Cant even find a suitable time to celebrate with my pw mates by having a simple meal or sth.. Arghz..
I really hope that i didnt regret things, but apparently, i hv regretted more than i hv ever before. Maybe it's just a form of consolation or jealousy? Maybe it's just a form of dismay and sadness. Still hope everything will be alright..
And when i thought i hv gotten over it, it came back to haunt me!
Anw, hope things work out for everyone.
I am so darn tired. Freak. So darn emotionally unstable. Thnx j loh & hanteng for offering themselves as punching bags for me! But i too pai seh, so ended up not doing anything. Arghz... If only society is more accepting & transparent & forgiving. I hate u annsiong!
Wheee! I think i m weird. Haha!
posted @21:16
Sunday, April 15, 2007
Crap.. GP tuition
Crap.. GP tuition today not cancelled.. And i am super lazy & tired now.
I think that i am: 1) Super duper freaking lazy 2) Super duper freaking forgetful Man.. I hope that i will be less lazy and less forgetful. Sux...
Article 1: Statement of Love: The Kiss 1. Kiss on the hand I adore you
2. Kiss on the cheek I just want to be friends
3. Kiss on the neck I want you
4. Kiss on the lips I love you
5. Kiss on the ears I am just playing
6. Kiss anywhere else lets not get carried away
7. Look in your eyes kiss me
8. Playing with your hair I can't live without you
9. Hand on your waist I love you to much to let you go
Article 2: The Three Steps 1. Girls If any guys gets fresh with you, slap him.
2. Guys If any girl slaps you, her intentions are still good.
3. Guys & Girls Close your eyes when kissing, it is rude to stare.
Article 3: The Commandments 1. Thou shall not squeeze too hard. 2. Thou shall not ask for a kiss, but take one. 3. Thou shall kiss at every opportunity.
* Remember * A peach is a peach A plum is a plum, A kiss isn't a kiss Without some tongue. So open up your mouth close your eyes, and give your tongue some exercise!!!
Here are a few reasons why guys like girls: 1. They will always smell good even if its just shampoo 2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder 3. How cute they look when they sleep 4. The ease in which they fit into our arms 5. The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world 6. How cute they are when they eat 7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all worth while 8. Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside 9. The way they look good no matter what they wear 10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful thing on this earth 11. How cute they are when they argue 12. The way her hand always finds yours 13. The way they smile 14. The way you feel when you see their name on the call ID after you just had a big fight 15. The way she says "lets not fight anymore" even though you know that an hour later.... 16. The way they kiss when you do something nice for them 17. The way they kiss you when you say "I love you" 18. Actually ... just the way they kiss you... 19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry 20. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly 21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt 22. Then the way they apologize when it does hurt. (even though we don't admit it)! 23. The way they say "I miss you" 24. The way you miss them 25. The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore..... Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them ... it matters not. Because once in your life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound, you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart. We love them for a million reasons, No paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt.
Crap! PW results out tmr!!!! Hehe! All the best to all J2s!!! Including myself! hehe!
posted @23:51
exco interview
Wheee! Survived another day of vjco exco interview. Went to hv dinner with exco at mos which was seriously very ................. Guess i really cant find a suitable positive word for it. Well, we must do it more often! hehe!
Did i say how much i hate GP??? Like totally man!
Anw, got tis from yingkai quite some time ago. Wanted to blog it but kept forgetting.
Sec sch co syf GWH Dunman High Catholic High Nanyang Girls' High Rivervale High Pasir Ris Sec
GOLD Victoria St Nicholas Girls' Zhonghua ACS barker Mayflower Marsiling Ngee Ann Cheung Cheng Main Cheung Cheng Yishun Hwa Chong Institution Raffles Institution Raffles Girls' Woodgrove Temasek Anglican High
I am seriously DAMM LAZY LA! Yep, that's abt it...
posted @22:59
Pei Fu
Managed to buy more time in front of the com by insisting that i had to print something important - H3 pharm chem notes. Seriously, i wun care if i had the notes tmr, so it's not very important. What's crucial is that i get to use the com! Hehe!
Oh! The chinese documentary is called 'Rise of Great Nations'. Hehe! Damm random. Today's episode was on The Netherlands, and next wk's one would be on Great Britain. Right.. As if anyone would care...
So, why did i suddenly decide to blog again?
I totally agree with hongzhou abt ttk. He came down to listen to us yesterday & today. When he conducted, everyone (mostly the ex-dhsco ppl bah) played better than usual, which made it easier for me to follow along. It was definitely slightly more comfortable to play in it. Sizhao was gg around saying 'did u feel the aura??' Haha... Really pei fu him.. He's like the 3rd conductor whom i hv pei fu since i entered co-realm... 1st one is xuyiping, for her precision in music, though i am sometimes quite annoyed at her over precision which makes music dead... Seriously, without her, i wun be here today. As must as i hate her... 2nd one is mr goh, for his patience and patriotism in music, always trying to convey what the composer truly wants and spending precious time regurgitating the thoughts into our stubborn little minds... I luv and miss him man! haha! Hope his hand is okay! 3rd one is ttk, for his soft-spoken manner in being true to music, being able to gain the respect of many and conveying his thoughts with few words.. Let's see tis sat.. :p I think mr quek may hv been one too. Too bad he went overseas. He's damm energetic la! haha!
Enuf about co. Hehe... I guess things really do turn out as u least expected. I begin to learn to expect less and think more.
posted @00:20
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Woops!
WoopS! Looks like i broke the 'promise' i made. I blogged before my 6 days.. :p
Anw, survived thru 3 days of vjco stuff, 3 more days to go. Friday prac cancelled, which gives me 1 day of break in between! Hehe! And i think my solo has improved! Hehe! Though i still need LOADS of help from anyone! Haha!
Maybe it's just me. It has come to me that everything is just so fake, even everything about me. Weird.. Simply intriguing...
Anw, off to watch some chinese doctumentary on histories of civilisations or sth.. Hehe! I LUV HISTORY! NOT!!! :p
posted @22:26
Sunday, April 08, 2007
YaY! NO TUITION!
YES AH! TUITION CANCELLED!
I think this is like the 3rd time my tuition is cancelled on such last min notice. I know my parents are quite unhappy about the tutor, coz that means i have less chance to 'learn'. But seriously, i was hoping that he would cancel tuition. How can i survive 2 hrs of tuition with such a mentality even before it began? I was counting down to end of lesson last week. My mind just isnt ready for it. My mind isnt ready for anything. It suddenly came to me that i m losing focus on everything that i am doing. And it has stuck with me since dunno when. Either way, i thank my tutor for cancelling today's lesson. I guess no amount of time can cure me, but 2 hrs less of tuition for now can provide some form of relief... I need serious councelling...
It's like glucose being drawn away from ur muscles...
For once, i cant wait for next week to start, since the earliest i would reach home next week would probably be like 8pm. H3 + exco interview on mon & thurs, dazu on tues, wed & fri. Not forgetting sat's dazu. Bracing for impact...
Hope someone asks me out to study later. I bet i wun do anything at home today. But it seems things always turn out how u least expected.
And this is probably the last post for the next 5 days coz my dad intends to bar me from using his laptop for during weekdays... Sometimes i wish my parents read my blog...
Piss off!
posted @11:05
Saturday, April 07, 2007
Random
Haiz...
I can't believe it, so many things i want to type but all dissipated into thin air the moment the blogging screen appeared. Talk about twist of fate. Perhaps some things arent meant to be exposed explicitly...
Haiz...
I seriously lost track of my thoughts... Whatever it is, i have wasted so much time, i doubt i can catch it back. Oh! And i found out one thing. Whenever i hope for sth to happen, it wouldnt happen. However, if i didnt, it would. Weird. Have been observing it for quite some time le. I guess many may hv the same feeling as well...
Ciaoz...
posted @23:42
CO rox...
What a Good Friday to squander my time away...
Thought i would spend my time playing ee the whole day. Ended up listening to jian kuai de liang feng the whole time. Really got addicted to it, especially the dizi solo part. It's like the best composed syf song ever! Very soothing & calm, for times of loneliness & thoughts... Wishing everyone a emo-less weekend ahead.. :)
Fake ah!
posted @01:16
Friday, April 06, 2007
春 夏 秋 冬
Listening to 春 夏 秋 冬 now... Really think i am addicted to it le...
I guess my passion for co didnt really die down after all... For vjco, i really have to work much harder for my solo part. I really want to play something damm imba... Haiz...
Shall make it a point to have dinner with co ppl every FRIDAY! Hehe!
Life is weird. You take things for granted, go on looking for other things, only to discover that what you have taken for granted is actually what u really wish for. Then there are times when ur view of people can change so sudden from 1 extreme to another, that everything that you once stood for seem to be fake...
Well.. At least i can say that my passion for co isnt fake. But i must admit, i am quite slack. Hehe...
posted @00:06
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Chinese Orchestra
Man.. Think i really like CO music...
posted @00:43
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
Sec sch SYF
YaY!!! VSCO got GOLD for SYF! Hehe! Quite relieved actually. Was afraid that they couldnt make the mark. Though find it quite wasted that they nv get GWH! Hehe!
Anw, thnx joel for nygh & cchms co recording. Xuyang for vsco recording.
Off to listen...
Hoping that tmr will be a much better co prac! :)
posted @23:06
Sunday, April 01, 2007
Fake...
[Son of Victoria]
Everything suddenly seem so fake. What can we do if OVA & VAC/VEC really gives the green light for co-ed? Riot?!
But i still think 130 years is a long time...
March is over. April is here. Before long, May will be gone. Time is leaking out from my hand.
April fools' today. Wonder if tmr will be like 31 March last yr... Only time will tell..
It's weird how we sometimes want time to slow down, sometimes want time to speed up...
GP tuition today was quite a waste of money. My mind was totally focused on the clock, wondering how long more it will take for 4pm to pass...
I seriously miss the times when i simply lie on bed & stare at the ceiling... Now, i will be lucky if i can keep my eyes open for more than 10 min lying on the bed... Am i really that physically tired???
